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I somehow have this overwhelming sense of calm today. It's so strange, considering the amount of stress I've been dealing with lately. It's like I've pushed through and past my feelings of anxiety. I'm spent really. I'm not going to spend too much energy wondering about that today. I feel better today and that's all that matters.
I end NCR full-time in a week. I feel like I should have all these emotions about it, seeing as I spend 80% of my life here... but I don't. It's like the ride is almost done and I'm more than happy to get off. If only I didn't have to work part-time at all....
Red River doesn't know what kind of hours they'll give me, given my availability. I guess we'll see on that.
Everything in life seems like a waiting game. Things have a way of working out, I just have to patient.
Patience has never really been a virtue of mine, but what can I do?
I can't believe summer is almost over. I hate that. It's like you blink twice and summer is over. I hope that we have a warm fall, at least.
Feel like there's so much more to say and nowhere to start, so i'll leave it at that for now.
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[08 May 2009|12:14pm] |
Man... It has been sooo long since I've written in here. It seems like NCR brings out the livejournal in me...
I feel nostalgic lately. Today I've spent the better part of the day reading old entries... I wonder if there's anyone out there in livejournal land anymore.
I check facebook entirely too much these days; it kind of makes me sad. Where were the days of writing and reading about our lives instead of posting pictures and do meaningless quizzes?
I don't even know how to write anymore. I feel stuck. Perhaps I just have to get back into the groove.
I have a headache.
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[24 May 2008|04:42pm] |
I don't even know what to say in here anymore. Everything seems to be changing, yet I feel completely the same. I don't really get it.
I tried and failed this low carb diet.. but meh. That didn't work. I am certainly at a low regarding feeling good about myself. I don't know why, and I'm not really sure how to pull myself out of it.
I have a new bike, though, and i love it. I guess that's new. I'm so scared that someone will steal it, though. Usually I don't even bring it to work downtown because I'm too worried about it. To be fair, it is unattended downtown at night.. But what's the point of buying something if you're afraid to use it? Perhaps getting it insured will calm my nerves a little. I hope that's not too expensive.
I'm trying to go out and have fun more, and worry less. I'm not 9 credit hours away from my undergrad. I chose not to take any spring courses because i just needed a break from school. I feel like i'm in sort state of limbo. I keep flipping/flopping on what the next year should be like for me. Work more, go to school less, or vice versa? Le sigh.
In other news, my baba seems to really be going downhill. I just got off the phone with her and she was asking me all kinds of questions that don't make sense. I know she is getting older, but it's still so hard to deal with. I wish this would get a little easier.
I'm looking forward to tonight, on the bright side. Nicole and I are going to bluefish so sushi (viva la carbs!) and then we're going to gio's for the drag show. I'm not even sure who reads this anymore, but the more the merrier. :)
In a couple weeks Mandy and I are going to Chicago.. does anyone know any great places we should check out while we're there. We really want to go on oprah but apparently you need tickets like a million months in advance. Well, I'm exaggerating, but you get my drift.
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[16 Oct 2007|02:30pm] |
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Wow, It's been SO long since I posted. Things seem to be crazy lately. When is that ever new.
I'm really loving the weather. I wish we could hold on to this fall breeze for a few more months.
I'm excited for halloween and chanaka/christmas, though. Mandy and I are going as Kermit and Miss Piggy. I'm going to rock that costume. I need a blonde wig, anyone know of a good place that sells cheap wigs?
Althogh I love the fall, I've decided that this winter I would like to learn how to snowboard. I bet I'll regret saying that when I'm on a hill, but c'est la vie.
I'm taking a lot of really great courses this year.. Although I'm a tad overwhelmed because 4 out of the 5 courses are English. One is a linguistics course and I'm going to drop it. It's making me mental. Lexical properties and morphology and blah blah blah. Not for me!
Gay and Lesbian Lit is so interesting. We've been learning Gertrude Stein and I have to say I really enjoy her. The fact that she creates her own meaning without any linear form is quite amazing.. Has anyone read lifting belly? Any thoughts? I can't wait to read it all.
It's interesting to think that in the 1920's, in France, being an "out" queer person was completely ok. World war 2 sort of changed that.. I sort of thought that time brought progressive change.. I guess that really isn't true..
My practicum is going well.. I taught a girl how to free write the other day. I think I should free write more often. Sometimes it feels like you have no idea about what's in your head until your hand starts moving across the page...
This entry seems scattered, but long overdue. How is everyone? I've been consumed with a million things lately.. but I'm feeling whole. It's so refreshing.
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[12 Jul 2007|12:27am] |
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We're all moved in!
Yay! The internet is hooked up! Now we just have to finish the unpacking. Man... this summer is full of changes. Good changes, though.
I need to go to sleep but i just thought i'd update super quick.
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[08 Jun 2007|08:42am] |
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My goodness. It seems like life is changing so quickly I barely have time to process *anything*. I guess I'll list things off in point form, because I really should be writing my paper.
- School. It's good. I really like English. I'm aiming for an A. Too many papers though. Blech.
- My appeal (these are getting old), went over well. They aren't waiving my over-award, though.
- I like my new job. The girl I work with is really sweet and patient with me. I'm starting to get the hang of understanding what's she's needing. I never realized how much I depend on language day to day. She usually taps out whatever she's trying to say to me with her foot on a piece of laminate paper with all the letters on it.
- I don't miss NCR! Like, at all. I thought I would. Even a little, but...
- My uncle passed away last week. It's been rough. I mean, for me it wasn't that I knew him that well, but it's painful to see my dad cry. I hope he's going to be okay. I am going to try and put more effort into seeing him.
- I'm trying to find another job to accompany my new job when I'm done english. Something fun. Something fulfilling. I don't care about the money. I'll be in debt no matter what right now. It's just part of being a student, methinks.
- Speaking of money.. I am watching all these debt shows lately. I think I might cut up my credit cards. Or at least hide them!
- Moving in less than a month. Crazy. I have SO much to do.
- PRIDE! What is everyone going to? We're going to the parade and the social!! Party party party.
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[14 May 2007|07:31pm] |
Well kids, mark May 26th! It's my last day of office-ville! I'll miss NCR (oddly), but it's really time to move on. I've been unhappy with the scheduling for so long..
My new job has already started, so it's a bit crazy for 2 weeks but then it'll get a lot easier. I'm helping a girl that has cerebral palsy part time. I'll be able to stay there during school too. She seems like such a nice girl. I'm so excited about it!
(yay!)
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[10 May 2007|03:52pm] |
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I've been looking for cute leggings to wear under sundresses and I can't seem to find any for people over 150 lbs! Okay, why is it if you're not a size 4 you have 10x more trouble finding nice clothes. Being more curvy should not correlate with looking like a bag lady! Sigh. Also, I'm on the hunt for cute flats that fit wider feet. Most places only carry a b width and I believe I take a c or something. Ick. Hellllp!
School is good. For once. Too bad student loans are giving me trouble. Again. Why why why do they have to do this to me allll the time. Seriously. If I ever become rich one day I want to help students trying to put themselves through school. Student loans drive me crazy.
Think that's it for now.
Oh! I'm also looking for a low rider bike to ride around in. It'll be my exercise and transportation in one! Anyone know where I can find a nice one?
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That's sort of how I've been feeling lately. Feeling I need a change. Work really really sucks. Reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally sucks.
They've decided to train me for the US side (all the years prior I've been dispatching canadian provinces). I have to say, it's really not my thing. The terminology, reports, geography.. just EVERYTHING is different. Blah.
I also really dislike these hours:
Monday 2-1030pm
Tuesday and Wednesday OFF
Thursday 2-11pm
Friday 2-1030pm
Saturday 230-11pm
Sunday 230-11pm
I mean, you can't get ANYTHING done while working these stinking hours. I hate it. I guess it'll work while I'm taking this spring english class. I hope it doesn't kill me. It's Monday-Friday 1030-12:20. I really want to do something fun like take belly dancing! Does anyone know of a class that's being offered that doesn't conflict with my putrid schedule?
I went for an interview this morning at the jewish campus. The position was for a camp coordinator at b'nai brith. What I didn't realize is that you need to be in kenora for 2 months. Sigh. So close but yet, so far. Back to the drawing board for me. Does anyone know of any education related jobs that I could apply for?? I really feel like I need at least a part-time job that's more closely related to my field (without falling into the hardcore poor-house)
Aaaaand.. I need some ideas for quick, delicious, and healthy meals to make. I've been living on subway as of late. I will not turn into a subway sandwich. I refuse! Help!
(I'm going a little crazy, methinks)
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[16 Mar 2007|08:11pm] |
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Well, spring seems to be just out of reach. I'm dying to go for walks again.
Lately things seem to be looking up.. for awhile everything was stressing me out beyond belief. School/work/money problems were really getting the better of me.
School has been a little better this semester, especially after dropping Dev. Psych. It was a third year course that I didn't really need in the grand scheme of things. Also, if I finished this course my psych minor would be filled and I really want to take educational psych. I think it would be my favourite class *ever*! I know I'm rationalizing, I can't help it, it's just what I do. Trying to stay motivated for earth science especially is quite trying at best. I just feel so sick of taking classes I'm not that interested in. Oh well. After this year I won't need any other science courses, and that makes me extremely happy.
If all goes well, I'm going to take that religion and psychology course in the spring. Has anyone taken it before? I can't wait. It sounds so interesting.
My work didn't give me any bonus this because I'm considered part-time. It infuriated me though because in years prior I've still gotten at least partial bonus. I don't really know what to think about the whole thing now, but I got a bursary so that's really helping ease the 'ol bank account. I was so sick of sitting in my overdraft all the time. I love being a student (usually), but I hate not making any money.. I can't wait for my income tax return to come in. That'll ease things up a little more.
In two weeks Mandy and I have our first anniversary! It's crazy how fast the time flew by. There's something so nice about realizing you've spent all 4 seasons with one person.
I love spring so much. It's so nice to be feeling better. Winter was really getting the best of me. It might still be cold, but you can tell spring is on its way.
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[04 Mar 2007|11:46am] |
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So we got our tattoos. We went to Alex at Tattoos for the individual. She was very professional and explained the whole process thoroughly.
I have to say that sitting still for so long was probably the hardest part. Getting the outline done wasn't exactly a walk in that park, but it was soooo worth it. Here's a few pics!
( Read more... )
All-in-all it was a really great experience. We are already talking about what tattoos we'll get next. My next will be a butterfly, sitting on a blue rose, with a nape piercing at the top. I can't wait!
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[26 Feb 2007|06:27pm] |
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So, Mandy and I looked at place promenade for apartments today. It was exciting, but slightly overpriced. We have an appointment to see a townhouse on the weekend, and I think we're sort of set on it. The idea of having a whole townhouse for the kitties to roam, an in-suite washer/dryer and a patio sounds really amazing. A BBQ party? Sigh, that sounds lovely to me. It's sort of out of the way (in St. James), but it's right next to a big park. I could get a bike and go for bike rides everywhere without worrying about a lot of traffic. I remember when I lived in West Kildonan I used to love riding my bike to Mia's place or to Garden City. Wow, that was a loooong time ago. It feels like I'm entering a new phase of my life, and it's refreshing. I really dread this moving process though, I haven't done it in sooo long.
Saturday is the tattoo. I'll post pics afterwards. Eeek.
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[08 Feb 2007|07:20pm] |
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I feel like the winter is just dragging by. This is the time of year where the novelty of winter has passed and we're just waiting for spring to appear.
Sigh.
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So, yesterday Mandy and I had our tattoo consultation. Wow, it seems real now. We couldn't get the M in colour like we wanted, so it's just going to be black with a red heart (instead of a dot) on our hip. I'm sooo excited.. I keep getting Mandy to scratch my back to show me what the sensation will feel like.. eeeek! Does anyone else have tattoo stories to share? EEEEEEEEEEE!
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Hah. So guess who went to the snoop/ice cube concert.
Shawna, Mandy and I. Holy cow.. it was more for an educational experience (that and I sort of like snoop, it's a guilty pleasure). It was pretty fun actually, but SO not my crowd of people.. Funny to see how many people got in trouble for smoking weed, considering snoop himself had a HUGE joint.
In other news, I got my eyes tested and should be getting 2 pairs or glasses on Friday. One pair is LIME GREEN, and the other is basic black. I was thinking of getting a brown, but I think these will be more fun.
I'll take pics when I can.
How is everyone? School is driving me crazy (again), but I now have 1 hour of professional development, and less migraines coming soon. Oh so excited.
OH OH OH, next week Mandy and I go for our tattoo consultation. We're getting an M on our back that matches. I'm a little nervous (pain-wise), but really excited!! I really get getting piercings, so I think this should work out alright.
Overall I feel happier. I've been eating healthier overall and just feel better.
and now (stolen from Kat)...
reply to this post, and I'll tell you one reason why I like you. Then put this in your own LJ and spread the love.
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[16 Jan 2007|05:01pm] |
Hrmmm....
I feel like I should have a lot to write about, considering that I haven't posted for sooo long.
School is back in full swing.. I decided to drop a class so I could devote more time to racking up professional development hours. I think I need 20 hours by April.Right now I'm currently sitting at 0. Ah, procrastination at its finest. I'm signing up to be an in-school mentor through the big brothers/big sisters as well. I'm really looking forward to it. In Feb. I signed up for a teacher's in training conference at school.. I think it's called CHARGE... I thought it was going to be good for professional developement, but apparently it isn't anymore.. It's sad, but I think it still might be interesting. If not, it's still just 4 hours of my life..
In other news, I've joined the dark side and set up a myspace. I really didn't want to, but you can't see other people's websites if you don't have one yourself. If anyone wants to add me, I believe my username is meowilicious as well.
Back to work for me..
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[26 Dec 2006|07:33pm] |
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Holy... the holidays really didn't turn out quite the way I had planned. My dad really tried though.. I was quite impressed. We all went to his place and exchanged gifts, and then after to my cousin Sherry's for dinner.. Gloria was really liked the scarf (Mandy I told her WE made it..:).. and dad really liked all of his gifts a lot. I got a mp3 player (whoops!), money and pj's from my dad and gloria. They gave me a receipt for the mp3 player, so I think I'm going to get an adapter so my headphones fit into the ipod all nice-like.
Morgan mentioned that gio's on new years is black tie... does anyone know what they're going to wear? Methinks I need a marilyn munroe type dress! Where would one find such a dress if they're not a size 3?
Mandy and I are getting our hair done on Thursday (god it seems like she's been in portage forever, I miss her so much)... I need it get my hair done SO badly. It's a terrible scene, really. I look like a mop head. I've been trying to grow it out forever, but it's just not working.. Sigh. I'm thinking many shades of brown with red tips and a blonde chunk maybe? I don't know! I need some ideas!
Time off seems to be going to entirely too quickly. I wish we had another week..
I've been thinking of what my new years resolutions are... I think I have a whole list... eat better, become a better communicator, workout more, study harder, become more organized.. wow, the list goes on and on. What are your new years resolutions?
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[24 Dec 2006|11:52pm] |
Well, it seems as though this day as DRAGGED ON FOREVER. I don't like all of this. When I was a kid I used to hate x-mas because that meant my non-jewish friends couldn't play outside with me. Chanaka never really was as big of a deal..
Tonight I'm going to midnight mass, not because I've become a Christian or anything, but because I want to feel some sort of positive family togetherness. I just hope I don't feel guilty the minute I walk into the church, you know? Baba would have a fit.
Blech.
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[19 Dec 2006|11:01pm] |
Well, celebrations are under way and I'm feeling really good this year. Chanaka with my family wasn't as wonderful as it could have been, but really, when is it ever fantastic? I guess it's true that you can pick your friends, but not your family..
I sort of like the thought that some friends are family. I did a project once in women's studies about challenging the dictionary's definition of family. I should find that project, I had a lot of fun putting it together.
I just wish I could completely be myself with my family (my mom's side). I hate having to constantly censor myself.. I'm happy it's not really like that with my dad and his girlfriend, on the bright side. I'm excited to spend the holidays with them. It's not a religious thing at all for me, but I really appreciate that fact I have a dad at all..
In other news,
Last night at the delta was a lot of fun. Blaze (the restaurant there) was a lot more classy than I thought it would be. I'm now craving their mushrooms (mandy, maybe we can go there for mushrooms and a drink another time?). Mandy and I also exchanged part of our xmas presents last night. It's so funny, we both bought eachother the EXACT same ipod. Same model, same colour. The only difference is that she knows I'm a klutz, so she got me a holder to put mine in.. I guess we're on the same wavelength.
Shawna just bought a ginger bread house for us to put together later this week. I'm excited. I don't think I've *ever* put one together before. Yum.
I should go back to making this scarf. My sister comes in on Saturday, and I'm not even half done. Sigh.
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Holy drunk mel.
Tis the reason Idon't come to zee bar too often.
Have a goodnight all in lj land!
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